Buy the Ticket
Every day, an old man prayed to God the same prayer. Daily, the man would plead, “God, let me win the lottery today!” After years of the same prayer, God finally came down from the heavens and pleaded in return, “My son, for the love of Me, go out and buy a lottery ticket already!”
What tends to be easier than taking that leap? Just about everything: talking, complaining, praying, waiting, distracting, being distracted. The list goes on. Sometimes we do everything in our power to quiet that little voice inside us that tells us to DO. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my own life, it’s that my inner voice, weather it be God, the Universe, Energy, or my Gut, is never wrong. Furthermore, it gets louder and more direct the more I listen to it.
Often times, that voice is super inconvenient. Scary, even. Sometimes, a breakup is needed for you to grow. Sometimes that breakup is with your significant other. Other times, it’s with your agent, or a friend who’s holding you back, or maybe even your job.
The question then is this: Are you going to spend your energy stifling that Voice or surrendering to it?
Last summer was one of some significant ends for me. In one month, my yearlong relationship came to an end, along with my first print contract with an agent I was with for two years. Both of these changes were scary, but more importantly, both were necessary for me to grow.
Let me be clear: I am in no way negating the relationships that ended. All too often, we hear of something ending and assume it must have been a failure. I would argue that’s not usually the case. Both my romantic relationship and my relationship with my agent existed for the time they did in my life for a reason, and for a good reason at that. I learned a lot about the business while under contract with my previous print agent, and I spent a wonderful year full of love, respect, and adventure with my now-ex. But sometimes, for one reason or another, things must come to an end in order for both parties to grow and flourish.
And that’s what happened for me. Two days after cancelling my print contract with my first Chicago agent, I booked my first print job with my Wisconsin agent. A week later, I booked my second, and the following week, I booked my third. The fourth week, I signed an exclusive contract with Factor / Chosen, a very successful modeling agency in Chicago.
I don’t think this is a coincidence, and I also don’t think this is unique to me. When you take the step of faith and listen to your God / Gut / Energy / Universe, that energy will come back to you, sometimes, ten-fold. But that’s just it. It’s your responsibility to take that step.
Your faith will take you to the counter. It’s your job to buy the ticket.
And now it’s about time I buy another ticket. At the end of May, I’ll be moving to LA to continue my acting and modeling careers. I’ve been standing in line waiting to buy this ticket since before I moved to Chicago. I remember stressing over which city to move to in order to start my career just three years ago, but at the time, LA didn’t quite feel right yet.
Nevertheless, the ticket has been in my hand ever since my Chicago move, and I haven’t been able to put it down. Over the past year, I’ve been doing some serious research and planning for this move (more about that coming up in a future post!), but there’s really no way to be 100% ready. And that’s where that faith kicks in.
The last week of May, I’ll be packing my car with whatever I can cram into it. I’ll be making the 2,100-mile trip across the country and subletting an apartment for the summer until I can find something that suits me. I’m scared as hell. I have no idea what to expect. Will LA become my forever home, or will I some day move back to Chicago, or even another city? I’ve never had so many unknowns in my life, and it’s extremely unsettling.
That being said, I do have a lot. I have the support of my family and friends in the Midwest. I also have a few friends and family members in and around California. I have my experience from being in the business over the years. I have a phone, email, and social media that will keep me connected with the ones I love. Most importantly, I have my God that continues to make me feel uncomfortable.
We can pray to God. We can talk to our friends. We can do a google search until we are blue in the face. (And I recommend you do all of these things.) But sooner or later, we just gotta DO.
Know there is no limit with God. Know the Universe is endless. Know your energy flows into eternity and back again.
Don’t put yourself in a box. Instead, obey the Voice that lives within. Allow yourself to live while you’re alive. Buy the ticket. Your future self will thank you for it.
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